tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post672316011624149869..comments2024-02-23T17:50:39.179-05:00Comments on Holland Happenings: New normalAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09059773834331356101noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-25304718712904099022010-11-10T10:05:36.590-05:002010-11-10T10:05:36.590-05:00Wow, a great post.......very near and dear to my h...Wow, a great post.......very near and dear to my heart. The worst day of my life was January 15, 2007. I 'should have' been 13 weeks, but from the ultrasound it looked as though development stopped at week 9 or so. I felt hollow inside as soon as my Dr. turned the u/s screen away from us. He said, "I'm sorry" and began to explain to us what was happening. He let us cry (thankfully Jim was with me). It was a very difficult time for us to go thru - but 'hindsight is 20/20'......right.<br /><br />Jim said to me that night while lying in bed, "God has a plan. He knows what we need and He will find the perfect puzzle piece to fit our lives and He will make our family complete. We have to trust Him and let Him help us to get through this."<br /><br />I can now find a bit of comfort in all that we went through. I see Lj now and he IS the perfect piece for our family. I am thankful that God let me see that his plan works....even if we don't understand it all the time.<br /><br />January 15 doesn't come and go without a pull of the heartstrings......nor does the due date. I lost a baby - and that will never go away.<br /><br />Thanks for posting, Larissa.<br />~CassieAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-62391751891439124102010-10-30T00:14:32.333-04:002010-10-30T00:14:32.333-04:00We lost a baby too between our two boys so I have ...We lost a baby too between our two boys so I have experienced those same feelings of despair and being at such a low I don't have the words. Now I can find joy in God's plan and His sovereignty. I know one day I'm going to see my baby in Heaven - what a day that will be!Carol Nelsonnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-54874239253895743432010-10-26T23:38:20.790-04:002010-10-26T23:38:20.790-04:00Thank-you so much for sharing your story, Larissa!...Thank-you so much for sharing your story, Larissa!! The pain can still be so very real- can't it!? Thank-you for allowing your pain to encourage others. I have been so blessed to read of how God worked in and through you!<br />JessicaOur Family for His Gloryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03754215555608896525noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-88315218927734197762010-10-26T21:40:49.411-04:002010-10-26T21:40:49.411-04:00Larissa, you already know my 'story' and m...Larissa, you already know my 'story' and my heart breaks to read the similarities. Finding the new normal is tough. You are now in a club that no mom ever wants to be in. Losing a baby is losing your hopes and dreams for that child. Be it at 6 weeks, 12 weeks, 16 weeks, or 30 weeks.<br /><br />I will never be the same person I was the moment before the ultrasound tech told me my son was gone. But the person I am now is much stronger. Given I was neurotic with my subsequent pregnancy, I think I cherished it much more than had I not lost Zachariah.<br /><br />Thank you for sharing this part of your life. I always knew you lost a little one well into your pregnancy, but never knew the details or the pain you went through <3Hollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13417690352538088226noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-56908173855891344612010-10-26T16:53:07.558-04:002010-10-26T16:53:07.558-04:00Wow, Larissa, I had no idea that you had experienc...Wow, Larissa, I had no idea that you had experienced this loss! I am so sorry. I only wish that I had known you then and could have been with you (or at least someone you could've called) so that you didn't have to sob by yourself. I'm so sorry but praise the Lord that you have handled this so well.Tarahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14817882710228513104noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-90279185809326672252010-10-26T16:37:40.637-04:002010-10-26T16:37:40.637-04:00Wow Larissa and Sarah...heartbreaking...every deta...Wow Larissa and Sarah...heartbreaking...every detail still seems so fresh. I have never experienced the heartbreak of losing a precious child, but I praise God that those who have can comfort others who know that pain. And the Father of all mercy has given you both 3 more beautiful children to join the one in heaven!Lindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10624367358276749264noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-11454976303294022222010-10-26T10:23:23.893-04:002010-10-26T10:23:23.893-04:00Thanks for your reply, Sarah. You are absolutely ...Thanks for your reply, Sarah. You are absolutely right, "why not me?" We can only hope to be able to use experiences and dark times in our lives to minister to other people who are also experiencing dark times.Larissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05121319196579842443noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206349614470114098.post-62916404529433529062010-10-26T09:37:43.816-04:002010-10-26T09:37:43.816-04:00Larissa, we too lost a baby, July 4, 2004. We had...Larissa, we too lost a baby, July 4, 2004. We had only found out the day before at our first checkup that the baby was gone. I think I already knew the baby was gone, I had had this really bad feeling every time we told someone we were pregnant, I shrugged it off everytime. They did an ultrasound in the doctors office, no heartbeat, but a small glimmer of hope, they sent us for a more intense ultrasound in case they just couldn't pick it up with their equipment. Jody wasn't able to be back during the ultrasound and the technician didn't say a word to me, but I saw the baby and it wasn't moving, no little tiny heartbeat. I clearly remember seeing the umbilical cord and the blood flowing. I remember walking in a daze afterward all I kept thinking was "i'm carrying a dead baby". I ended up miscarrying on July 4, 2004 and ended up in the emergency room because I was losing so much blood in such a short time. After being told by ER doctors and nurses that "my pregnancy" was still early (i was 9 weeks) it was my body's way of disposing of a baby that more than likely have major birth defects. We kept saying "our baby" and this was God's plan, it was all I could say. They gave me several shots to stop the bleeding and eventually had emergency surgery and after spending the night at the hospital I was able to go home. I remember hugging Emma and holding her and not wanting to put her down or out of my site for months. I was so angry and hurt, it was so hard not to say "Why God?, Why me?". But on the same side, "Why not me?", I'm a regular person, nothing special about me, just because I am a child of God didn't mean I was exempt from hurt and pain and losing a child! During that time in my life God used so many other women that had lost children to minister to me and in turn I have been able to do the same. Your post brought back so many emotions for me, but also thankfulness that I've been able to have 3 beautiful children since!!!MEhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02700867036645148540noreply@blogger.com